Date Archives June 2010

Dear Readers,
I’ve been going through a Writer’s Worse Nightmare…Writer’s Block…!
For the last four to five days, I’ve been trying to write, each time I start something…I can’t seem to complete it. Not to mention, my words are not satisfying me…I wrote almost three pieces and I felt that they are not good enough to go public. Please, read the following and take me out my misery, please let me know, that I Can Still Write.
Without my words…I’m nothing and that is Not a Good Feeling. =(

I guess it was just meant to be…
Waiting for two hours…
He shows up late…
And you can’t even scream out loud.
He says, please kill me…
Kill me now…
And you are just too pissed…
To even look at him…
You sit quietly next to him in the car…
And he drives around…
Constantly apologizing…
You keep answering, it’s alright…
And he knows it was a blatant lie…!
He tries to hold your hand…
But you break away…
“Baby please I’m so sorry”.
“It’s alright my love, forget it”.
“No, it’s not okay, I feel so embarrassed”.
“You don’t have to”.
He holds your hand again…
This time not letting it slip away…
He caresses your skin with his thumb…
And trying to control the gear…
“Don’t try to get cute with me”.
He laughs and apologizes.
You know, you can’t resist his charm…
“I hate you”.
“I love you too”.
He looks at you…
And gazes deep down in your eyes…
And he bends down to touch your lips…
Mind you…
It wasn’t a kiss…
Just a peck of lips…
Just a reassurance…
Of what you mean to him.
Probably the sweetest thing you will ever come across.
“I’m fine now”.
You smile and give him a wink…!
How can it be?
He is the Big Bad Boy…
And you’re just a Desert Girl…
How can you two ever last???
He likes the fast lane…
And you prefer to breathe every now n then.
He wants no tags…
And you want vows.
Two completely opposite people…
Can never make a circle of life…!
And in spite of all this…
You find yourself…
Having the time of your life with him….!
You laugh…
You joke…
You throw tantrums…
You fight…
His accent compels you…
Your vocabulary excites him…
Photography…
Writing…
Reading…
Swimming…
Hardships…
Highest Highs…
Lowest Lows…
You can talk to him about anything and everything.
He says, “I don’t what to do, get involved or be your best friend, you are way too cool to be a girlfriend”.
And you laugh out loud.
You sit close to him…
With your arm around his…
Leaning towards him…
He puts his chin on your head…
Right out of an Indian Chick Flick…
That seems so clichéd…
Yet so sweet…!
He is wearing this metallic silver chain around his neck…
And he tells you,
He wears it all the time…!
I love his fragrance…
Hey, I know this…
I think it’s Ferrari Black…
Good Looks…
Killer Accents…
And Good Taste…
Jack Pot 😉
Kcchhhhiiinnngggggg…..!!!
You’ve never been this happy ever before…
So free…
So alive…
Actually speaking your heart out…
No Strains…
No Tensions…
No Commitments…
No Catches….
And you feel like…
Hitting the dance floor…
That lounge song…
Swinging in your guy’s arm…
But you know what…
You on his shoulder…
And him driving…
Midnight…
Open Track…
Music…
And Shades on the car’s windows…
Nothing Beats This 😉

Don’t even try that…

I know that look…

You think,

You can win…

Just by getting cute with me…

No way…

Not this time…

You take me for granted…

And it’s high time,

You should realize what we have…

Is hanging by a thread…!

Haven’t you had enough…?

I waited three hours for you…

And you did not even bother to pick my call…

I left you text messages…

I even left a voice mail…

But nothing…

You did not even budge…

Stop pretending as if you care…

I’ve had it with your tricks…

This has to stop…

Right here…Right now…!!!

What are you staring at…?

I know that gleam in your eyes…

You think,

You’ll charm your way out this one…

Don’t use that slow walk on me…

Listen…

Stop there…

Don’t come near me…

Will you just stop…?

I’m asking you to stop…

And I bang myself against the wall…

I do not wish to see you…

Just go away…

Don’t try to look into my eyes…

It’s not going to work this time…

Stop caressing my soul with that look…

Eyes penetrating framework transparent…

Spiritual consortium contemplates completion unbroken…

Connection concluded…!

Stop hurling my soul with your silence…

Just look away…

I cannot ignore your content…

And then you bend down…

Come close…

My heart skips a beat…

Your cologne plays with my senses…

O! You are wearing Ferrari tonight…

Listen, let me go…

You pay no heed to my fake pleads…

You breathe fire…

On the curve…

I’m not going to let you win this time…

Body writhing in sexual calculation…

Slow quick deliberate,

Touch you heaven made complete…

Satin silk your skin versus fingertips…!

You make my resistance difficult…

And then your…

Lips browse my neck contour …

And you place a soft kiss right there…

On the forbidden beauty mark…

You know my weak spot…

You Should Not Have Done That…!

It’s 03:39 AM…

I just checked my cell phone for the fifth time in the last two hours…

I can’t seem to go to sleep…

What’s making me restless…?

I’m totally clueless…!

What’s wrong with me…?

After a hard day of work I should be snoring by now.

Or is it that something inside me is messed up?

I’m after all, miles apart from my friends, my work…

Am I missing my daily office routine…?

O! Please…you have got to be kidding me.

Or perhaps missing my girls…

Yeah, that could be it…

It’s been so long since I last saw all my girls…

And then SATC – 2 is making me think about them even more!

I guess I miss My Best Buddy…

I should give him a call…

Fabulous, I call him all the way from Dubai, and he does not pick up…!

Well at least, now I can go to sleep.

Crap!

Still not working…

Alright…just try to relax.

Wow, I never noticed…

My ceiling has these intricate Italian designing on the sides.

Very Elegant…Nice!

Pa certainly knows my taste.

I just realized something…

My hair smells divine…

O! Wait, that’s just because I washed it today.

I guess, I know the reason…

Why I can’t go to sleep…

It’s HIM…

I thought coming here…

Would make things better…

But it’s completely futile.

Don’t get me wrong…

I thought I would still be devastated

But I don’t feel a thing…

Completely Numb…!

Al tough the two oceans between us can’t seem to blur my memories.

Anyways,

No thinking about a certain individual who does not even know my location right now…!

Getting back to the bigger picture…

Tossing and turning in bed for three hours now…

God! Send me some sleep dust…

Okay, enough now…

It’s time to tweet…

I take out my cell phone…

And log on to the internet…

Place a tweet on my twitter account and then log off.

Something is still so fidgety inside me…

Perhaps, if I rinse my feet and take a warm glass of milk.

06:00 AM in the morning…

Yup! That didn’t help even…!

Now, this is irritating…

I’ve to go shopping tomorrow…

Buy presents for my friends…

I get up from my bed…

With a loud thud…

And straighten out the creased bed sheet…

Wait, what’s that…

Something fell from under the covers…

Is that a pearl from the necklace that broke earlier today?

Yes, for sure…

Was this the reason I couldn’t sleep…

I climb back in…

Smiling…

Thinking of the famous story…

Princess and the Pea…!

I settle inside my quilt…

Suddenly the bed feels so inviting…

My eyes feel heavy already…

May be my brother is right…

I’m a Daddy’s Spoilt Little Desert Princess…!!! 😉

When I see you sitting like this…
I wonder what is going through your head…
perhaps nothing and perhaps much more than I can comprehend…
I tell myself…
I want to sit right in front of you…
take your hands down…
and tell you…to look into my eyes…
and say what ever it is the hell you want…
I feel like forcing your crossed legs aside…
and slide in ever so perfectly…
with my legs apart right into your embrace…
Cap my legs around you, so you would not be able to push away…
Like you always do…
I’m afraid, you’ll try to break my hold
and tell me to be just quiet…
Fine, I’ll be quiet just like your shadow but sit right here…
and count down the minutes…
for how long you will be able to resist…
You look here and there…
and give me that familiar silent treatment…
I am not going to move away, not budge in…not this time…
At last you give in…
You say, You asked for it…
You push me down right there on the floor…bumping me hard…you know what you did…and yet say nothing…
I say your name out loud…!
You reply: Now I’ll do that talking…!
You look straight into my eyes…
Even though I wish to be in your arms, I’ll pretend to break away from your hold…
You hold my wrists firmly by the floor…and purposely…
crunch them…
I try to let go vaguely…and you know, its all a play…
You give a faint smile, from the corner of your lips…
and I look down just to break away from your breath…
You say: You just love sticking it to me don’t you…
with that intimidating sparkle…
I look away, with a flushed face…
You make me look back…
You question me…
Now Talk To Me, You Wanted To Talk Right…
Now you shut up…
and listen to me…
You know, I do not belong here…
and yet you keep on testing my patience…
Why do you love doing that…?
I’ve told you a million times to stay away…
why doesn’t that go in that thick head of yours…
I’m terrified…
your tone is making me feel heavy…
I know you mean well but still am afraid…
You continue to say all that you kept inside…
Why can’t you understand, I do not wish to do something I’ll regret…
Don’t try to make a future…one that is not possible…
Alas…!
I gather my strength and say…
“I know, and I walked away”…
But what you don’t see
is that right now…
you are on top of me…
Let go of my hands, and I’ll walk away this minute…
You look down for a second…
I know, I offended you…
With an instant you return…
And this time, you don’t speak…
With an irresistible look…one that
I had never ever seen before,
I return to your fine nature
That memorable inviting smile on my face,
One that would only make you
Realize…my feelings locked…
A storm within you…
Collides with the thunder I harbour…
You leap inside me…
Unsure of where this love would take us
The endless love story began
“Drawn in” to an unknown place!
And you whisper:
You love to talk right…tonight,
I’ll make you scream…!!!

He stood right outside the restroom, he carried a women’s bag in one hand…when a slender female hand from inside asked for it, he slid it onto her palm…his fingers brushed against her supple palm…inside she cleaned herself…splashed water onto her pale white face…her dark circles were admitting to her sleepless nights…her kohl was now running, she cleaned the eerie black lines from her cheeks with the tips of her fragile fingers…she opened her messy braid…half wet…half dry…she ran her fingers through her long black tresses to un-tangle them…her skirt was covered with dirt…under the tap she tried to disperse the grime off…outside he leaned against the wall, with his both hands in his pockets…he kicked his foot slightly on the carpet…!