Why do I have to make these choices…
Always forced to listen to theses voices…
Until all I hear is a mix of noises…!
I know you so well
When you feel any emotion I can tell
I can make what’s going through your head…
As soon as you enter the room…
I know what ticks you…
I know what clicks you…!
I know what secrets lurk in the depth of your laptop…
I know what is that think…
When you see my heena hands…
I know how you feel…
When you text me “thinking of you”…
At 3:24AM in the night…
And I know when you think of me…!
The only problem is…
That we can’t be together…
I can’t tell at all if you see me in your daydreams…
This of all is the scariest decision…
The risk of finding out and loosing my best friend…!
It’s like gambling a double or nothing…
Will I discover you really need me…
Or will I be left with no one to save me…
I wish someone would guide me in what to do…!
How to help me deserve you…
I know I can probably never match up to her…
She’s probably the perfect girl, tall with straight gorgeous hair…
How would I ever compare…
I can’t reveal to you how I feel…!
These voices tell me I should choose to conceal…
But my heart tells me I should choose to reveal…
How can I ever make you want me for real…!
Who do I turn to when you are the one…
I tell all my problems to…
When this time my problem is about you…!
My worst fear was revealed to me…
When you said I’ll be dancing at your wedding…
When I know in that case…
There will be tears I’ll be shedding…!
When I look at my invitation and read the heading…
With your name on it and the luckiest girl next to it…
How would I handle myself and go through with it…
Your gorgeous bride standing by your side…
Me watching in the crowd…
Pretending I’m the girl in white…
Knowing deep down this can’t possibly be right…
She will never feel for you the way I do…
Was she with you through all these times…
Would she write you all these rhymes…
Some may say I’m whipped…
I say I just care…!
Whenever I do something for you…
It’s my way to prepare…
For my imaginary future I have with you…
The one we’ll never have…
I know you are happy with her…
And I pray each day…
For this to continue…
You both have all my prayers…
For now just know…
I think I’ve fallen for my best friend…
One Chandler and Monica…
That can never be together…!
Posts in Inklings – Poetry & Prose
“For Now…” – Sequel to A Forbidden Encounter
Yellow roses…
Adorn her desk…
Yellow bangles…
Tease her senses…
Perhaps just not hers…
Her life has suddenly taken a detour…
Which she accepts…
She does not concur…!
Blushing away into oblivion…
Smiling for no reason at all…
Feeling beautiful in a middle of a hot day…
Is this all for real…?
This is not her…
A practical girl…
Who has always lived on her terms…
Now finds herself…
Strayed into a pair of
Prohibited arms…
Can this be all true…?
A girl like her…
Can she actually let go of her boundaries…?
To be with someone
She is forbidden to even dream of.
She finds herself…
Staring at the criss – cross lines…
Trying to figure…
If his name…
Might be hiding
Under the blankets of destiny.
No, he already belongs to someone else…
She cannot do this…
How can she even think…
Of hurting the one man she loves the most!
How can she be this selfish…
She keeps telling herself…
THIS TOO SHALL PASS…
But how will she ever…
Ward off his taste…
And push away his fragrance…
How perfectly he held her in his arms…
How perfectly her arms glided on his shoulders…!
How can she forget…
How he understands her darkest fears…
Just by her gait…
How can she ignore…
All the talks…
All the hours of endless sharing…
Each word uttered by him…
Secretly lives in her diary!
The trust she has is in him…
Carries a simple tune to her heart…
An emotional devotion…
A divine intervention…
She wishes everyday
To be self-centered enough
To ask him…
What he can never give.
She wants to know…
Can he put his hand in hers…
And go through life…
Leading each other to the light…
Till the end of time…!
Alas…
These are just dreams…
And hopeless antics…
That will take her no where…
For now she only wishes to be his Best Friend…
And be there for him…
Whenever he needs a hug…
A hug when the world is fast asleep…!
A love story that was only…
Meant to be written…
And not read…!
Legendary, and only told of in tales.
For now let me…
Hold onto your hand…
For tomorrow is to come…
With new battles to be fought…
And I want to be the one…
You turn to…
And talk your heart out…!
A FORBIDDEN ENCOUNTER
They knew it was wrong…
But they just wanted a few mintues…
O! Lord why couldn’t everyone take an off today…
He sat in his cabin…
Desiring her…
And she could feel the vibes…
All the way down the hall…!
One
Two
Three
Four
Great just great
And today they decide to be on time.
I so want you right now…
He texted her…
Stop making it so hard for me…
She replied…
Blushing just thinking about it…
She never thought…
She could make a man…
Feel this way about her.
He comes out for a drink…
Neutral…
And she sits there…
Watching him…
Hiding her fire…
From the world…!
Lord, please do something…
I just want to hold her and taste her inexperienced lips.
And all I want is to place my arms…
Around his shoulders…
Pull him closer…
And never let go…!
Its lunch time…
May we could…
Sneak in the kitchen…
No the office cook sits there…!
Just one minute…
Thats all we need…
Everyone around heads to the eating area…
She too goes as routine…
But leaving her heart behind…
She sits on the table…
With the rest…
And realizes…
She left her cell phone…
She heads down…
With her heart banging against her chest…
With a whirlpool of thoughts…
Clashing together…!
Is this is…?
Is this an alibi given by destiny…?
Is this our moment…?
She opened he door to the hall…
And she could hear…
His voice inside her head…
“Come here”, he kept repeating.
She enters his cabin…
And her heart skips ten beats…
Shivering from top to bottom…
Standing with her eyes plunging with blush…
He approached her…
And she shuts her eyes…
He slides his right hand…
Down her waist…
And all of a sudden…
All her fears drown…
She raises her lips…
To meet his…
…explosion…!!!
Two worlds collide…
And burst into a single drop…
Of pain intermingled with pain…!
She glides her arms…
Around his arms…
So naturally…
Her left leg pops…
Just like in old english movies…
In sixty seconds…
They both experienced…
Passion of a life – time…
He was just about to…
Explore her curves…
When she freed herself…
From his potent hold…
And feld his cabin…
He stood there for a second…
Smiled…
and turned towards his desk.
And she was left…
That could only be called…
A Forbidden Encounter…!
In a land of chains and law…
They had done…
What should have never been done…
But it was too late…
To mope over the mistake…
It was now time…
To savour it’s each moment…
With each stare…
With each accidental hallway bump…
With each stat meeting…!
They had done the impossible…
Creating their own little world…
Among the beasts of a wicked tomorrow…!
There was only one flaw…
In their brilliant plan…
Now they had to fight off…
The taste on their lips…
And ward all the possible…
Desires that follow…!!!
“Our Little Secret”
White walls..
White lights…
The sound of the printer…
And a series of door slamming…
Everything is so quiet around us…
A lingering soft tempting silence…
The people around us think…
We are busy with work…
but we know better…!
I wonder…do we concur…?
Why did our worlds…
all of a sudden…
decide to collide…?
What is that you want exactly…?
Why am I here in the first place…?
Signals twirling and twisting…
I can’t seem to escape your words…
This strange friendship nurturing…
Though we are nothing, I care…!
Just knowing each other…
brings smiles to our faces.
Though we are nothing…
I enjoy what we share…
A special little sanctuary of our own…!
Each going through…
each of our own phases…
Trying to figure out…
who we are.
Where the meaning of life can be found…!
So let us set out…
on this brand new expedition.
In search of this New World.
Even though…
the world around us will never understand…
Don’t let them convince you…
this is not meant to be.
For now…
for the sake of what we have…
this will be our…
“Little Secret”.
“NEW MOON”
The Night of 14th December…
The corniche…
The car bonnet…
The stars…
The new moon…
Two cans of coke…
And
Two Best Friends…!
God! That was fun…
I know, can’t believe we actually did it.
Did you look at the green sari aunty…?
She could not stop staring…!
Yeah and that guy with the purple shirt…
He was practically panting…!
Really, everyone was like this is not possible…
They did not know what hit them…!
Well, you have to accept…
We do make a pretty good team.
I agree…!
They both were lying down…
Facing the stars…
Celebrating their victory…
It was pretty hard…
But nearly as impossible…!
Together, they could conquer anything…
And be the envy of the entire gathering…!
You tired…
He turned and asked her…
A bit but I’m too excited to feel any of it…
What about you?
Yup the same…!
He turned to her again…
You want something to eat…?
Not hungry…what is got into you…you never bother to ask me these things…?
Well, I guess…just trying to develop a habit…!
She laughed…
Don’t, I like the you…just the way you are…!
He smiled back.
She turned her head towards him…
He was looking back at her…
What are you staring at…?
Nothing, just trying to figure out something…!
She gave him the ignore look and looked up the sky…
The moon is full and shinning at its peak…
We sure picked the perfect date to carry out our performance…!
He took her hand…
She turned towards him…
He filled his fingers with his…
And pulled her hands towards his chest…!
You know whats the best thing about all of this…
What she inquired with hopeful eyes…
That at the end of it all…
I get to hold your Heena Hands…
And feel your Red Glass Bangles…!
Her cheeks flushed…
And her gaze lowered with love…!
The Crimson Red and Betel Green dress took a new turn…
The Kohl smudged…
The Earring caught in the Embroidery…
The Anklet made a heart-melting echo…
The Bangles found a support to lie down…
And the…
Bride and the Groom…share their First Kiss…!
Under the stars…
Tonight…
Whispered… “WE DID IT” =)
Sign Of True Love…Or Total Insanity…!
What the hell is this?
Crap…!
Are you of your mind?
I swear…I don’ know anything about this.
What do you mean…?
This came out of your bad…!
I have no idea, where this came from…
I promise you, this is not mine.
Don’t you dare lie to me…!
You expect me to believe you…!
So this was your important work last night.
I cannot believe, you lied to me…!
Just let me explain…
You are misunderstanding me.
No, now I can see it clear…
How can you hurt someone you love…?
This only shows you don’t love me…
How could I be so naive…?
I let my heart get the best of me…!
Will you just relax…
And stop jumping onto conclusions…
When I told you, I needed you…
I was missing your hugs…
You said…
You can’t make it…
Now I know, what was keeping you busy…!
Sweetheart, please it’s not what you think…
I love you very much…
I would never even think of hurting you..
Liar…!
Here I’m thinking of you…
And there you were smacking lips with…
Honey, don’t say that…!
Trust me…
Do you actually I can be ever un-faithful to you?
I don’t know anything now…
Just go away…
Honey, please don’t do this…
I said, just go away…!
I need some time alone…
Please just go away…
He quietly walked out…
He knew…
It was pointless talking to her right now…
Back in the room…
She threw the one thing that started all this…
Out the window
It was a wrapper
Of…
BEN & JERRY’S CHUNKY MONKEY ICE CREAM….!!! =P
A SUBTLE DRAMA….!
It was a timeless image…
A Chanel black silk halter…
Long evening gown…
A plunging V neckline…
A pleated surplice bodice…
A velvet trim resting at the waist…
Understanding the curves…
And a seductive cross back…
A pair of Givenchy black stiletto with peeping toes
A pair of tear – dropped diamond earrings…
And the most perfect set of soft black curls…
Complimenting her smoky eyes…
Just the perfect touch to a subtle drama…!
All of this was…
Nothing why he moved towards her…
It was the middle of a September Night…
Paris was all lit up…as always.
Everywhere you turn…
You could see people living life…
To the fullest…!
And there she was standing under the fountain…
Drenched from head to toe…
The curls were lost completely…
The kohl was trickling down her cheeks…
Creating a trail of terror…
The diamond earrings glistened under the moonlight…
She was shivering with the cold n fear…
He was passing waiting in the parking lot…
For his date…
Who was unusually late tonight…
They were to attend a corporate dinner tonight…
Perhaps it was just Destiny up to its tricks again…!
She caught his attention out-of-the-blue…
And he got struck…!
She was weeping…
Whimpering in hush tones…
On such a busy street…
How could no one notice…?
A girl in a gown soaking wet under the fountain?
He looked here and there…
To assure himself…
That he was not hallucinating…
This girl was for real…
He started walking towards her…
Keeping telling himself…
That she might just a figment of his imagination…
She was the most astounding living creature…
He ever had laid eyes upon…
So fragile…
Yet standing firm…
Her eyes were brimming…
Yet knew what she desired…!
He approached her…
With a strange gut feeling…
She stood trembling…
Ma’am are you okay…?
She did not utter a single word.
Something I can help you with…?
She was constantly starring…
At something…
He looked down to find an answer…
He could not see anything…
No object…
No living being…
He looked up again…
Are you looking for something…?
She stood gaping at the ground…
He reached out to her shoulder…
But withdrew back…
He knew something was terribly wrong…
He tried to talk to her but in vain…
With a hope of finding something…
He looked down again…
And in the midst of the splashes…
He saw something…
A thin red line…
Moving back n forth with the water…
His eyes exploded…
When he trailed the line back to her feet…
Blood…!!!
It was then when her belly caught his attention…
We have to get you to a hospital…
Now….!!!
She did not budge…
He grabbed hold of her hand…
And took her in his arms…
And carried her off to his car…
She remained mumbling…
He took her to nearest emergency room…
The meds put her on a stretcher…
And pulled her away…
Right then…
She gathered…
What was left of her strength…
Trying to breathe…
Half conscious…
Bleeding to death…
And tried to hold onto the end of his dinner jacket…
He tried to take her hands…
And the meds carried her away…
Right there…
In that moment…
A universe…
Detonated…
This woman…
A complete stranger to him…
And in less than 30 seconds…
She managed to change…
His entire life course…
15 minutes later…
He was called inside the doctor’s office…
Please have a seat…
Is he okay…?
Are you the father…?
No.
Are you a relative…?
No.
I’m the husband…!
Your wife is fine…
But we are very sorry…
We could not save your child.
Is she going to be alright…?
Yes, weakness and trauma…
Will surround for a while…
But she is going to be fine.
When can I take her home…?
In the morning.
Can I see her now…?
Yes, of course you can…
Right now…
She needs you the most…
He walked inside the room…
With a bunch of Yellow Roses…
She was lying still…looking out the window…
Upon his entrance…
She turned at him…
She hardly remembered anything…
The doctor entered…
You are one lucky lady Mrs. Adam
Your husband was only concerned about you.
She looked puzzled…
And then she looked at him…!
The doctor left…
She tried to get up…
He went closer to her bed and asked her to lie down.
He put the flowers on her bedside…
And sat down right beside her…
Do I know you…?
No.
Then why all this?
He gave a faint smile…
And took out a piece paper from his pocket…
Handling it to her…
This is why…
She knew what the paper contained…
Her eyes…
Already swollen…
Filled up with tears…
She took the piece of paper…
Close to hear heart…
And started crying out loud like a little child…!
There was instant desire to comfort her…
But he knew he had to resist…
But he could not stand see her torture herself like this…
He got and started to walk away…
Just then…
An arm reached out…
Gripping the end of his Armani jacket…
He turned around…
Saw her exhausted…
With pain…
And embraced her…
She cried in his arms…
And he kept rocking her like a baby…
Nestled against his chest…!
The next morning…
He carried her off to the car…in his arms…!
THE PIECE OF PAPER – “Get Rid Of That Thing…Bitch”.
Mind You, This Wasn’t A Date…!
Dear Readers,
I’ve been going through a Writer’s Worse Nightmare…Writer’s Block…!
For the last four to five days, I’ve been trying to write, each time I start something…I can’t seem to complete it. Not to mention, my words are not satisfying me…I wrote almost three pieces and I felt that they are not good enough to go public. Please, read the following and take me out my misery, please let me know, that I Can Still Write.
Without my words…I’m nothing and that is Not a Good Feeling. =(
I guess it was just meant to be…
Waiting for two hours…
He shows up late…
And you can’t even scream out loud.
He says, please kill me…
Kill me now…
And you are just too pissed…
To even look at him…
You sit quietly next to him in the car…
And he drives around…
Constantly apologizing…
You keep answering, it’s alright…
And he knows it was a blatant lie…!
He tries to hold your hand…
But you break away…
“Baby please I’m so sorry”.
“It’s alright my love, forget it”.
“No, it’s not okay, I feel so embarrassed”.
“You don’t have to”.
He holds your hand again…
This time not letting it slip away…
He caresses your skin with his thumb…
And trying to control the gear…
“Don’t try to get cute with me”.
He laughs and apologizes.
You know, you can’t resist his charm…
“I hate you”.
“I love you too”.
He looks at you…
And gazes deep down in your eyes…
And he bends down to touch your lips…
Mind you…
It wasn’t a kiss…
Just a peck of lips…
Just a reassurance…
Of what you mean to him.
Probably the sweetest thing you will ever come across.
“I’m fine now”.
You smile and give him a wink…!
How can it be?
He is the Big Bad Boy…
And you’re just a Desert Girl…
How can you two ever last???
He likes the fast lane…
And you prefer to breathe every now n then.
He wants no tags…
And you want vows.
Two completely opposite people…
Can never make a circle of life…!
And in spite of all this…
You find yourself…
Having the time of your life with him….!
You laugh…
You joke…
You throw tantrums…
You fight…
His accent compels you…
Your vocabulary excites him…
Photography…
Writing…
Reading…
Swimming…
Hardships…
Highest Highs…
Lowest Lows…
You can talk to him about anything and everything.
He says, “I don’t what to do, get involved or be your best friend, you are way too cool to be a girlfriend”.
And you laugh out loud.
You sit close to him…
With your arm around his…
Leaning towards him…
He puts his chin on your head…
Right out of an Indian Chick Flick…
That seems so clichéd…
Yet so sweet…!
He is wearing this metallic silver chain around his neck…
And he tells you,
He wears it all the time…!
I love his fragrance…
Hey, I know this…
I think it’s Ferrari Black…
Good Looks…
Killer Accents…
And Good Taste…
Jack Pot 😉
Kcchhhhiiinnngggggg…..!!!
You’ve never been this happy ever before…
So free…
So alive…
Actually speaking your heart out…
No Strains…
No Tensions…
No Commitments…
No Catches….
And you feel like…
Hitting the dance floor…
That lounge song…
Swinging in your guy’s arm…
But you know what…
You on his shoulder…
And him driving…
Midnight…
Open Track…
Music…
And Shades on the car’s windows…
Nothing Beats This 😉
D.E.F.E.N.S.E.L.E.S.S
Don’t even try that…
I know that look…
You think,
You can win…
Just by getting cute with me…
No way…
Not this time…
You take me for granted…
And it’s high time,
You should realize what we have…
Is hanging by a thread…!
Haven’t you had enough…?
I waited three hours for you…
And you did not even bother to pick my call…
I left you text messages…
I even left a voice mail…
But nothing…
You did not even budge…
Stop pretending as if you care…
I’ve had it with your tricks…
This has to stop…
Right here…Right now…!!!
What are you staring at…?
I know that gleam in your eyes…
You think,
You’ll charm your way out this one…
Don’t use that slow walk on me…
Listen…
Stop there…
Don’t come near me…
Will you just stop…?
I’m asking you to stop…
And I bang myself against the wall…
I do not wish to see you…
Just go away…
Don’t try to look into my eyes…
It’s not going to work this time…
Stop caressing my soul with that look…
Eyes penetrating framework transparent…
Spiritual consortium contemplates completion unbroken…
Connection concluded…!
Stop hurling my soul with your silence…
Just look away…
I cannot ignore your content…
And then you bend down…
Come close…
My heart skips a beat…
Your cologne plays with my senses…
O! You are wearing Ferrari tonight…
Listen, let me go…
You pay no heed to my fake pleads…
You breathe fire…
On the curve…
I’m not going to let you win this time…
Body writhing in sexual calculation…
Slow quick deliberate,
Touch you heaven made complete…
Satin silk your skin versus fingertips…!
You make my resistance difficult…
And then your…
Lips browse my neck contour …
And you place a soft kiss right there…
On the forbidden beauty mark…
You know my weak spot…
You Should Not Have Done That…!
Confessions of a Desert Princess
It’s 03:39 AM…
I just checked my cell phone for the fifth time in the last two hours…
I can’t seem to go to sleep…
What’s making me restless…?
I’m totally clueless…!
What’s wrong with me…?
After a hard day of work I should be snoring by now.
Or is it that something inside me is messed up?
I’m after all, miles apart from my friends, my work…
Am I missing my daily office routine…?
O! Please…you have got to be kidding me.
Or perhaps missing my girls…
Yeah, that could be it…
It’s been so long since I last saw all my girls…
And then SATC – 2 is making me think about them even more!
I guess I miss My Best Buddy…
I should give him a call…
Fabulous, I call him all the way from Dubai, and he does not pick up…!
Well at least, now I can go to sleep.
Crap!
Still not working…
Alright…just try to relax.
Wow, I never noticed…
My ceiling has these intricate Italian designing on the sides.
Very Elegant…Nice!
Pa certainly knows my taste.
I just realized something…
My hair smells divine…
O! Wait, that’s just because I washed it today.
I guess, I know the reason…
Why I can’t go to sleep…
It’s HIM…
I thought coming here…
Would make things better…
But it’s completely futile.
Don’t get me wrong…
I thought I would still be devastated
But I don’t feel a thing…
Completely Numb…!
Al tough the two oceans between us can’t seem to blur my memories.
Anyways,
No thinking about a certain individual who does not even know my location right now…!
Getting back to the bigger picture…
Tossing and turning in bed for three hours now…
God! Send me some sleep dust…
Okay, enough now…
It’s time to tweet…
I take out my cell phone…
And log on to the internet…
Place a tweet on my twitter account and then log off.
Something is still so fidgety inside me…
Perhaps, if I rinse my feet and take a warm glass of milk.
06:00 AM in the morning…
Yup! That didn’t help even…!
Now, this is irritating…
I’ve to go shopping tomorrow…
Buy presents for my friends…
I get up from my bed…
With a loud thud…
And straighten out the creased bed sheet…
Wait, what’s that…
Something fell from under the covers…
Is that a pearl from the necklace that broke earlier today?
Yes, for sure…
Was this the reason I couldn’t sleep…
I climb back in…
Smiling…
Thinking of the famous story…
Princess and the Pea…!
I settle inside my quilt…
Suddenly the bed feels so inviting…
My eyes feel heavy already…
May be my brother is right…
I’m a Daddy’s Spoilt Little Desert Princess…!!! 😉