Why do I have to make these choices…
Always forced to listen to theses voices…
Until all I hear is a mix of noises…!
I know you so well
When you feel any emotion I can tell
I can make what’s going through your head…
As soon as you enter the room…
I know what ticks you…
I know what clicks you…!
I know what secrets lurk in the depth of your laptop…
I know what is that think…
When you see my heena hands…
I know how you feel…
When you text me “thinking of you”…
At 3:24AM in the night…
And I know when you think of me…!
The only problem is…
That we can’t be together…
I can’t tell at all if you see me in your daydreams…
This of all is the scariest decision…
The risk of finding out and loosing my best friend…!
It’s like gambling a double or nothing…
Will I discover you really need me…
Or will I be left with no one to save me…
I wish someone would guide me in what to do…!
How to help me deserve you…
I know I can probably never match up to her…
She’s probably the perfect girl, tall with straight gorgeous hair…
How would I ever compare…
I can’t reveal to you how I feel…!
These voices tell me I should choose to conceal…
But my heart tells me I should choose to reveal…
How can I ever make you want me for real…!
Who do I turn to when you are the one…
I tell all my problems to…
When this time my problem is about you…!
My worst fear was revealed to me…
When you said I’ll be dancing at your wedding…
When I know in that case…
There will be tears I’ll be shedding…!
When I look at my invitation and read the heading…
With your name on it and the luckiest girl next to it…
How would I handle myself and go through with it…
Your gorgeous bride standing by your side…
Me watching in the crowd…
Pretending I’m the girl in white…
Knowing deep down this can’t possibly be right…
She will never feel for you the way I do…
Was she with you through all these times…
Would she write you all these rhymes…
Some may say I’m whipped…
I say I just care…!
Whenever I do something for you…
It’s my way to prepare…
For my imaginary future I have with you…
The one we’ll never have…
I know you are happy with her…
And I pray each day…
For this to continue…
You both have all my prayers…
For now just know…
I think I’ve fallen for my best friend…
One Chandler and Monica…
That can never be together…!