If you can look…
Look closely…
At my imperfections…!
If you hold my hands…
You’ll know how brittle I am.
If you ask me to dance…
You’ll know how much I love to fly.
If you look past the kohl…
You’ll know a sea of broken dreams.
If you touch my heart…
You’ll know how weak I am.
If you thrust my lips…
You’ll experience the fire inside me.
If you browse through the pages of my diary…
You’ll know how difficult it is to be righteous.
If you question my honor…
You’ll see the woman inside me.
If you ridicule my affection…
You’ll watch me move heavens for you.
If you inquire of a sacrifice…
You’ll see me walk away right this minute.
If you ask me for a favor…
You’ll know of my compassion.
If you put me under stress…
You’ll see how I shine before dawn.
If you pour toxins in my life…
You’ll observe my perseverance.
If you trap me in your lies…
You’ll see faith in my eyes.
If you try to cheat on me…
You’ll see me wait for you over dinner.
If you give me an anklet…
You’ll witness the melody of a thousand angels.
If you give me yellow roses…
You’ll know the blush of a bride.
If you tease my senses…
You’ll see how inexperience I’m in bed.
If you test my love…
You’ll awaken the Juliet inside me.
If you question my persistence…
You’ll find the 21 letters, never posted.
If you wonder of my patience…
You’ll spot me standing right here years down the line.
If you take me in your life…
You’ll walk into Paradise.
Why do I have to make these choices…
Always forced to listen to theses voices…
Until all I hear is a mix of noises…!
I know you so well
When you feel any emotion I can tell
I can make what’s going through your head…
As soon as you enter the room…
I know what ticks you…
I know what clicks you…!
I know what secrets lurk in the depth of your laptop…
I know what is that think…
When you see my heena hands…
I know how you feel…
When you text me “thinking of you”…
At 3:24AM in the night…
And I know when you think of me…!
The only problem is…
That we can’t be together…
I can’t tell at all if you see me in your daydreams…
This of all is the scariest decision…
The risk of finding out and loosing my best friend…!
It’s like gambling a double or nothing…
Will I discover you really need me…
Or will I be left with no one to save me…
I wish someone would guide me in what to do…!
How to help me deserve you…
I know I can probably never match up to her…
She’s probably the perfect girl, tall with straight gorgeous hair…
How would I ever compare…
I can’t reveal to you how I feel…!
These voices tell me I should choose to conceal…
But my heart tells me I should choose to reveal…
How can I ever make you want me for real…!
Who do I turn to when you are the one…
I tell all my problems to…
When this time my problem is about you…!
My worst fear was revealed to me…
When you said I’ll be dancing at your wedding…
When I know in that case…
There will be tears I’ll be shedding…!
When I look at my invitation and read the heading…
With your name on it and the luckiest girl next to it…
How would I handle myself and go through with it…
Your gorgeous bride standing by your side…
Me watching in the crowd…
Pretending I’m the girl in white…
Knowing deep down this can’t possibly be right…
She will never feel for you the way I do…
Was she with you through all these times…
Would she write you all these rhymes…
Some may say I’m whipped…
I say I just care…!
Whenever I do something for you…
It’s my way to prepare…
For my imaginary future I have with you…
The one we’ll never have…
I know you are happy with her…
And I pray each day…
For this to continue…
You both have all my prayers…
For now just know…
I think I’ve fallen for my best friend…
One Chandler and Monica…
That can never be together…!
Yellow roses…
Adorn her desk…
Yellow bangles…
Tease her senses…
Perhaps just not hers…
Her life has suddenly taken a detour…
Which she accepts…
She does not concur…!
Blushing away into oblivion…
Smiling for no reason at all…
Feeling beautiful in a middle of a hot day…
Is this all for real…?
This is not her…
A practical girl…
Who has always lived on her terms…
Now finds herself…
Strayed into a pair of
Prohibited arms…
Can this be all true…?
A girl like her…
Can she actually let go of her boundaries…?
To be with someone
She is forbidden to even dream of.
She finds herself…
Staring at the criss – cross lines…
Trying to figure…
If his name…
Might be hiding
Under the blankets of destiny.
No, he already belongs to someone else…
She cannot do this…
How can she even think…
Of hurting the one man she loves the most!
How can she be this selfish…
She keeps telling herself…
THIS TOO SHALL PASS…
But how will she ever…
Ward off his taste…
And push away his fragrance…
How perfectly he held her in his arms…
How perfectly her arms glided on his shoulders…!
How can she forget…
How he understands her darkest fears…
Just by her gait…
How can she ignore…
All the talks…
All the hours of endless sharing…
Each word uttered by him…
Secretly lives in her diary!
The trust she has is in him…
Carries a simple tune to her heart…
An emotional devotion…
A divine intervention…
She wishes everyday
To be self-centered enough
To ask him…
What he can never give.
She wants to know…
Can he put his hand in hers…
And go through life…
Leading each other to the light…
Till the end of time…!
Alas…
These are just dreams…
And hopeless antics…
That will take her no where…
For now she only wishes to be his Best Friend…
And be there for him…
Whenever he needs a hug…
A hug when the world is fast asleep…!
A love story that was only…
Meant to be written…
And not read…!
Legendary, and only told of in tales.
For now let me…
Hold onto your hand…
For tomorrow is to come…
With new battles to be fought…
And I want to be the one…
You turn to…
And talk your heart out…!