I stand before you…
Bare…
From head to toe…
My most sensitive mark
Visible to your naked eye.
I’ve traveled a long distance…
From Alexandria…
To Madrid…
From Wellington…
To Montreal.
And I find myself…
In the center of this circus…
Parched…
Exhausted…
And stripped away of my identity…!
You now stand before me…
And question my integrity.
You question my relationships.
And you raise a finger on my love.
The world around me…
Seems to know exactly how to maneuver me into a dark den
What they forget is that I’m guided by my own light.
You waltz in my life…knowing my weakness…
And decide to dictate me my flaws…
What you don’t realize is that my flaws make me strong.
While you are busy playing superficial…
I actually have people around whom I love dearly.
You obviously believe I’m not good enough…
I cannot be trusted…
And I am not like her.
What you forget in all of your verdicts…
That it was I…
Who held your hand…
When the world around you collapsed…!
It was I…
Who made you believe in yourself…
But now you are counting of all the ways…
I could do better.
I am done answering people.
I’m done trying to keep you happy.
You keep reminding me you have a hundred better options.
Well, I don’t want to be the 101 anymore.
This is it…
If you abuse me…
If you suspect me…
If you cannot accept me with all my imperfections…
Then It’s best to say our goodbyes…
No relationship can survive…
If one is adamant on changing the other.
I’m sure your new girl…
Will keep you very happy.
She will take care of sugar in your tea…
Clean your drawer…
Answer your mail…
Make you dessert…
Organize your planner…
Reschedule your meetings…
Jog your memory…
Purchase your medicines…
Iron your shirt…
Do your balance sheet …
Make you a mix CD
Wish you at midnight…
Count your kisses and pay back with interest…
And even read you the morning newspaper…
But hold on…
Why would she do that…
She is the one you love…
Not someone who LOVES YOU.
Posts tagged tears
“The Tale Of My Undoing”
Our story
Was like a tear drop…
Temporary and perishable…
The sky has now decided our fate…
Nothing we can do…
Except embrace the memories…
Our paths have now divided…
Your eyes from the far end of the aisle…
Assure me that you are happy…!
I must walk away now…
Forget everything…
The yellow roses must now rest…
The books must now retire…
The bangles must refrain from the chorus…
All the times you held my hand…
The fragrance must cease to exist…
The hug must learn to tame its heat…!
It must have been a treasure…
But it must now hide underneath my kohl.
She looks beautiful in the silk white gown…
How could I even believe…
I would match up to her beauty…
You both look perfect together…
I could not even live up to your name…
She is a wonderful human being…
She’ll enter your family like their very own…
She’ll give you everything you ever wanted…
All I could do…
Was help you out of your tormenting past…
she is going to help you…
Craft your entire lifetime…
I pray that she will love you more than I ever could…
You also,
Take care of her…
Never for a second…
Take her for granted…
We both knew…
This was to come…
What have I done…?
With my own hands…
I’ve written the tale of my undoing.
How could I have been this naive…?
To fall for a dream…
That was never meant to come true…!
No,
I must not think like so…
I knew what awaited me…
This is something I do not regret…
But
Cherish for as long as I live…
I hope the time you had with me…
You were happy…
I hope I made myself…
Worth your attention…
Worth your life long friendship…
I hope I did what I came here for…
Your past is now a faded memory…
With all the hope for a vivid future…!
As I now…
Hurl around in my around my yellow dress…
Dancing at your reception…
In the arms of your best friend…
There is only one thing…
Left to say…
Beneath my skin…
Beyond my senses…
Behind my soul…
You Live…!
…HEAL…
Some twenty years ago…
My mom screamed her head off…
When she saw me scribbling on the kitchen wall…
I was forbidden to write…
On the walls that is…
Words…
Ah! Sweet Words…!
They have always been my refuge…
My saving grace…
My sanctuary…
Through all my struggles…
I’ve poured out my agony…
When I had to purge my sorrow…
Words came to my rescue…!
People often ridiculed me…
A Writer in a White Lab Coat…!
They used to say…
Question me…
How can scientists ever…
Describe the depths of loneliness…!
Little did they know…
No one could ever…
express it better than a Desert Princess…
Caught between being a daughter and a girl…!
I stuck to my soul…
I knew it was my true calling…
Often the pain along the way…
Was too deep to tell…
…and the sadness…
…and anger…
Bottled up all inside…
None to paint a picture of fear and regret…
That’s when a bound…
Spiral…
Collection of blank pages…
Saved me from the tallest tower in the castle…!
In a world where…
People are caught in trivial matters…
To help my grieve…
My words were here again…!
…to celebrate my victories…
…to hug my ache…
…to hold me when I’m cold…
…to dance with me in the rain…
My words have seen it all…!
All the sweet memories…
Those keep haunting me…
With the steady rhythm of my heart…
My words continue to tease your senses…
And long after…
I’ve left this temporary world…
My words will continue…
…to remind you of my love…
…my hatred…
…my dreams…!
Mom says, in our society…
Girls do not win the Pulitzer Prize
But that has never stopped me before…
So, listen you all…
Am not giving up my dream just yet…
I still believe…
I have what it takes…
To make people go…
…awww…
And
…ahhhh…!
Ill be the persisting wall of words…
Never letting go…
I don’t care what you say…
I just know one thing…
Somewhere in these words…
Hides my essence…
My fountain of youth…
Have to keep drinking it…
Have to keep putting it…
…on paper…
To heal myself…!!!