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“HER FIRST TIME”

Last night she surrendered her innocence…
Not what she had expected but no regrets…
Time well spent because she longed to share with him this very moment.
This time she had anticipated…
Where their love, their passion would be culminated…
And every moment with had been sooo satisfying…!
Her life he did so enrich…
And now it’s their time to savor all this…
Although she had heard it been described in many ways…
Some say it’s beautiful, addictive while some even say it’s vice…
But she discovered something truly exceptional…
Something exotic, beautiful and sensual…
Between him and her last night…!
There were qualities that she had sought after….
To her it’s imperative to have something that lasts forever….
To have someone who could make her feel safe and secure…
Allow her to trust and open up a bit more.
There has always been something about him…
His physical structure a masterpiece…
Crafted with perfection in all the right places…
His image sticks to her like bees to honey…
An erotic lover, an idealized image of beauty…
Who did brought her to heights believed to be unattainable in reality…!
Amazing how she no longer felt unfulfilled…
Engorged in the memory of that lovely moment so peaceful and tranquil.
He made her see for who she was…
Someone compassionate and selfless…
Who doubts a bit but is soft and relenting…
Tenacious a tad too but so gifted, loyal and true…
Her fears he did allow to rest…
The way he made love to her…
For sure is the best and they both knew
To them…
This was so much more than just sex…!
She will never forget this night…
It was extraordinary…
Charming, undemanding and both so understanding…
Just allowing their bodies to do all the talking…
Creating all these beautiful notes and rhythms…!
Something so sinful, so carnal made her for the first time truly feel spiritual…
Don’t know it yet but whatever it was, it left her…
Still in a trance!
It was exciting, fun, could be a game they play…
Interesting and amusing where will this lead…
Don’t know, and trust me they do care but for now…
All she knows is that last night was, simply put – surreal
Just as He is to HER…!

Did it ever occur to you…?

As my world came tumbling down…
I turned around only to see you gone…
How could have you done this to me…
Abandoning me when the dark storm came rolling in…
And to think I thought I could trust you.
Often I cannot help wonder…
How could you be this cold-hearted?
Did it ever occur to you…?
You left me in the middle of nowhere…
And expected me to smile every time you needed me…?
It was my fault all along…
I was too comfortable with you…
I thought you’d never leave my side…
I believed every lie you ever told me…
And followed it like blind faith.
And today I find myself…
Trying to veil my tears under the covers…
Did it ever occur to you…?
How difficult it is to pretend everyday…
To see you completely happy without me…?
I miss the times when I could say anything to you…
And now every time I start to share a problem…
You take it as whining and complaining.
I miss the times when you were my best friend…
And I could be crazy with you…
And we had little secrets that nobody else knew…
And today you don’t even look at me the way you used to…
What kind of a connection did we share…?
Were the feelings fake…?
Was the concern only to last with the shitty contract…?
I am sitting here…
Crying my eyes out…
And I can’t even ask you for a hug…?
Is this is what I signed on for…?
I was fine on my own…
I was independent…
And then you came along…
Holding me firm through everything…
Making me feel I could rely on you no matter what…
And then you dropped me like a used piece of tissue…
Now I’m alone again…
But now it hurts…
Now standing through all the troubles…
Without your guidance and embrace…
Is walking on burning coal with bare feet.
I have to fight sleepless nights…
And this wicked world throughout the day…
Only to see you perfectly happy with another woman.
And I have to retreat into my shell…
Hide the pain away…
Try and save my tears…
To cry another day.
Did it ever occur to you…?
That I am still in love with you…?
That I did not only lose the man I love but also my best friend…?
Did it ever occur to you…?
That watching you with her and dancing around isn’t easy…?
Did it ever occur to you…?
That may be I don’t want to be your best friend anymore…
That you are asking too much off me…
That I can no longer watch you love her…
And criticize every breath I take…?
That I can no longer be available for you when you want me…
Especially when I can’t even call you up…
Until there is a death at my end.
I am not sure how long I can keep up with your prerequisites
Because all I see is you having the time of your life…
While your so-called best friend is drowning in front of your eyes.

“For Now…” – Sequel to A Forbidden Encounter

Yellow roses…

Adorn her desk…

Yellow bangles…

Tease her senses…

Perhaps just not hers…

Her life has suddenly taken a detour…

Which she accepts…

She does not concur…!

Blushing away into oblivion…

Smiling for no reason at all…

Feeling beautiful in a middle of a hot day…

Is this all for real…?

This is not her…

A practical girl…

Who has always lived on her terms…

Now finds herself…

Strayed into a pair of

Prohibited arms…

Can this be all true…?

A girl like her…

Can she actually let go of her boundaries…?

To be with someone

She is forbidden to even dream of.

She finds herself…

Staring at the criss – cross lines…

Trying to figure…

If his name…

Might be hiding

Under the blankets of destiny.

No, he already belongs to someone else…

She cannot do this…

How can she even think…

Of hurting the one man she loves the most!

How can she be this selfish…

She keeps telling herself…

THIS TOO SHALL PASS…

But how will she ever…

Ward off his taste…

And push away his fragrance…

How perfectly he held her in his arms…

How perfectly her arms glided on his shoulders…!

How can she forget…

How he understands her darkest fears…

Just by her gait…

How can she ignore…

All the talks…

All the hours of endless sharing…

Each word uttered by him…

Secretly lives in her diary!

The trust she has is in him…

Carries a simple tune to her heart…

An emotional devotion…

A divine intervention…

She wishes everyday

To be self-centered enough

To ask him…

What he can never give.

She wants to know…

Can he put his hand in hers…

And go through life…

Leading each other to the light…

Till the end of time…!

Alas…

These are just dreams…

And hopeless antics…

That will take her no where…

For now she only wishes to be his Best Friend…

And be there for him…

Whenever he needs a hug…

A hug when the world is fast asleep…!

A love story that was only…

Meant to be written…

And not read…!

Legendary, and only told of in tales.

For now let me…

Hold onto your hand…

For tomorrow is to come…

With new battles to be fought…

And I want to be the one…

You turn to…

And talk your heart out…!